Charlie becomes infatuated
with Alice Kinnian. They go on a date to a movie and dinner, and she comments
that she is afraid he may be hurt by the experiment. Charlie tries to tell her
that he loves her, but it's a very awkward evening. He wants to kiss her, but
she doesn't want to become emotionally involved with him because it might get
in the way of his progress and his obligations. Charlie vows that he will kiss
her the next time they go out.
Charlie is confused by his
memories. He has a nightmare in which he is afraid that he'll lose something
he's received but isn't sure how he got it. A bloody knife figures as a symbol
in the dream. Contemplating the dream, Charlie remembers a time when he spied
on his sister as she was taking a bath. He also recalls being chased and
getting cut with a knife and remembers finding a pair of his sister's
blood-stained underwear.
Charlie realizes that Gimpy
has been stealing money from Donner's bakery. He doesn't want to believe it,
but he finally accepts that it is happening. He reasons that Gimpy has made
him part of the theft by having getting him deliver under-priced packages to
customers. Charlie's emotions turn to anger; he wants to strike Gimpy for his
actions, but he doesn't believe that he could actually perform an act of
violence on another human being. He knows he must inform Mr. Donner, but he's
unsure what to do. He discusses the issue with Nemur, who says he need not
inform Donner; Strauss, who says he should inform Donner; and Alice, who tells
him that he must make the choice himself or forever remain a child. She
suggests that he trust his own judgment, and Charlie is stunned by the
thought.
Charlie tells Alice that he loves her, but she insists it's too early for him to think this way,
suggesting that it's mere puppy love, his first experience with such emotions.
She agrees to see him again, and they make a date to attend an evening concert
in Central Park.
Charlie decides to tell
Gimpy to stop stealing. He confronts Gimpy in a clever but indirect manner,
and Gimpy, feeling trapped and angry, agrees to stop stealing.
Charlie now spends hours at
the university library, but the college students and even the professors seem
childish to him.
On their concert date,
Charlie tries to make love to Alice, but a young voyeur distracts him. Charlie
chases the youth but can't catch him. He becomes disoriented and starts
hearing a strange buzzing in his head. After discussing the episode with Dr.
Strauss, he comes to believe that the young boy was a hallucination brought on
by his anxiety of dealing with women and sex.
Charlie gets fired from the
bakery. The other employees have begun to hate him, and Mr. Donner releases
him to keep the peace in this business. Charlie notes that Mr. Donner has been
a father figure for him. Even though he realizes that work at the bakery is
beneath him, Charlie is frightened of life without it. Charlie confronts Frank
and Joe before he leaves, and it's clear they feel inferior to him. A more
sympathetic coworker, Fannie Birden, refers to the Bible, and suggests that
it's not natural for man to know more than God has allowed him to know. She
implies that perhaps Charlie has made a bargain with the devil. Charlie can't
understand people's reactions to him, and without the bakery he feels more
alone than ever. Charlie visits Alice's apartment and discusses his feelings;
it's clear that he's feeling depressed. Alice suggests that losing his job at
the bakery is symbolic of losing his real family; she opens up to him and tells
him that she will comfort him.
The report ends with Charlie
recalling a time when a woman exposed herself to him as he made a delivery from
the bakery. Naturally, Charlie became frightened. This sparks a memory of how
his mother beat him and threatened to send him away whenever he got an
erection. Alice tries to calm him by cradling and kissing him, but Charlie's
sense of panic is too much and he breaks down.
Analysis
Charlie's date with Alice demonstrates a natural development in his personal relationships, but it also
reflects his juvenile treatment of the issue. The imagined voyeur and
Charlie's flight from the arms of Alice suggests that there may be some
deep-seated sexual problems he has yet to face. On other levels, however, his
emotional development is becoming more sophisticated. The episode with Gimpy
proves that he is developing a sense of conscience, for he is concerned with
issues of right and wrong, justice and injustice, as well as guilt and
responsibility. Charlie's reaction to Alice's suggestion that he trust himself
shows that he is maturing; however, it is also clear that his blossoming
intellect is starting to make him feel ostracized.
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